I'm gonna love you like a Black Widow Baby!

Here I am again with an update. I am exercising 3 times a day. I switch from P90X3, T25 and Insanity. That keeps me from getting bored. I am going to add 2 more days to my regimen bc I want results. I am mainting weight bc like usual my eating habits aren't good. I have the portion part down. I don't eat as much or I stop myself when I begin to feel full. I used to gorge myself even after my body being in pain from being overfed. Food addiction really isn't a joke, those of us who REALLY suffer from it know how it is and how it affects you. Some people are just lazy and fat  and eat without inhibitions and say they are addicted to food. Those of us who truly are know we think about 24/7 and every bit of food good or bad we obsess over it.  It's a daily struggle.

I am not a perfect person so I admit I am still eating bad food more than I should. I had fast food 2 times this month. Which is WAY better than usual but still more than a human should eat. I admit to my faults and I hope by me doing so you can feel better in knowing there are true people out there who suffer like you who aren't faking that they love eating healthy.

What I hate more is a fit person saying all you need is motivation, willpower, and the mindset. Yes, we do need those things but for some of us we need more will power than a regular strong minded, blah blah blah person. If we fail they would call us lazy. Some of us are trying to overcome our habits of eating bon bons on a daily basis. At least we are true to ourselves and don't perceive a fit attitude and then go hide in the closet and stuff our faces. That's where we are different.

I want to motivate not only you, but me too. This is why I remain honest and true. Neither of us will benefit from feeding each other lies.

Everyday I struggle with fighting my inner self to on what I can and can't do. Some days I win but some days the devil inside wins. Each day I am wake up having to fight again. It's all I can do. Everyday is a battle and I am learning we choose on whether we win or lose. But remember this- YOU ARE WORTH IT!!!


last BUT NOT LEAST HERE IS SONG I LIKE TO WORKOUT TOO:

 

 

Until Next time.

Here I am and Here I stand!

Hello!

It has been a little while since I've been on. So I guess you might of guessed, I relapsed. We are human. I have been working myself into a routine. I started out not working out, then doing it once a week, then slowly moving to one workout and some extra exercise here and there during the week. So today I did my workout and I plan to workout tomorrow to. Actually.... I WILL workout tomorrow and everyday this week. Usually when I workout a lot my weekend "workouts" are going out to walk and/or run. I love to get out the house and smell the fresh air. It just puts me in a better mood.

I keep coming across this quote everywhere, so it must be a sign right?

I am promising myself a better me and healthier me. My goal is for a healthier me and in the process lose weight. I want my body to be strong, have muscle, be toned and pretty ...to me. I must work on focusing on how I feel about MY body. When I can love myself, everyone else can love me too. Everyday is a battle and I plan to win it!!



I am a regular woman facing a hard road ahead and this time I don't plan on stopping til I get to my destination. I need motivation, confidence, will power and most of all GOD to get me through this.

Come with me on my journey.

Another week down 2 more to go

Hello everyone!

After tomorrow I will be done with Insanity Asylum week 2 then Sunday I will start week 3.

It's been very hard and trying but I love the exercises. I love it because it challenges  me and I never have time to be bored. That's always a problem..... I get bored quickly. Now I need to start eating better to see better results. I am eating OK but I need to eat cleaner. I've lost a little weight and getting toned but I could be doing better, I'm the only one holding myself back.

Doesn't it seem like every post I keep saying I need to do better with eating? It's such a challenge. It's so hard to admit and realize that I do have an addiction to food. I heard this one quote that has stuck with me " Never tell yourself you can't have that food tell yourself I CAN have that food but I DON'T want that food."

That's a good one, huh? Well, I hope to accomplish better eating this week. Baby steps, baby steps..... I must remind myself constantly that I am not perfect.


Until next time!!